78 days….

I’m so tired again today.

I didn’t sleep well.

Despite the excercise.

The excercise endorphins had the reverse effect.

I was sad.

Very Sad.

As in I was howling in the shower last night.


I mean, I can normally keep it down to a dull cry, but great shaking howling sobs were erupting from me.

My heart feels like it can’t hold so much sadness.

There is a real pain there.

A choking pain.

A pressing pain.

A black pain.

I miss you.  I love you.  Don’t leave me.