340 days….

It’s slowly dawning on me, that I may just be experiencing the calm before the storm.

Your 48th birthday is coming up.

I wonder how the hell I’ll handle that.

I then have to be all happy-happy for The Wedding at the end of February.

Right before Day 365.

A whole year of this insanity.

How the hell am I meant to handle that???

I can feel a crash and burn coming on.


… but not today.

Today was OK.

Good even.

Maybe that’s what I am doing – filling in some good days to try to balance the hell I know is coming.

I miss you.

I love you.