Recently, the cable through which my house receives both TV and internet had a major fault. It lasted 4 days.
…and I nearly lost my marbles.
Part of the reason was that I needed to log onto the work system to download the latest files for school, but part of the reason was that I have come to rely on the television to provide an inane, background distraction whenever my brain wandered in to places I’d rather it not revisit.
I told two friends about how much I had come to rely on the television to provide me with entertainment and distraction from being lonely and grieving. ….
Both friends are highly articulate women who are well read, interesting, and intelligent.
One of them knew exactly what I was talking about. She agreed that TV could indeed provide a valuable distraction that was great for whenever you were both tired and emotional to take your mind elsewhere for a while and allow it to rest.
The other one suggested that I go read a book instead because TV is “just a crutch”….
Guess which one of my two friends is another widow…….
Sometimes all that I need to go from feeling low to feeling OK is half an hour of watching Stephen Fry on QI or Doctor Who. I need to distract the part of my brain that deals with language and memory … and with less effort than that required to read and comprehend a chapter of a book. (Having said that, I still read each day, but its not something that calms me down. Rather, it is something I do when I am already calm.)
I can and do use other distractions frequently, but for me, the winner on an evening when I am feeling lonely and sad and angry that Greg had the hide to bloody well DIE on me is TV.
Am I alone in this?