364 days….
This is it.
The last day when I knew you were alive one year ago.
You weren’t here of course – you were at the bloody stinking farm which ate up so much of your time.
Time that you could have spent with us.
and for that, I will always resent the farm.
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I went to work today and knew that there is no way I can go to work tomorrow.
Mental health is underrated.
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Your brother has arrived and will be here for the next month.
I suspect you’ve organised this somehow – sending me your best friend, your brother, so I wont be alone right now.
Let’s hope we don’t get on each other’s nerves too much.
…and lets hope he gets LOTS of boy jobs done around here.
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I am tired.
So tired.
of waiting for things to be OK again.
and I think I will be tired for the rest of my life.
I miss you.
I love you.
XA
I remember my own countdown, reviewing what was happening “last year at this time.” Sorry love. Sucks so much.
I will be keeping you in my prayers tonight and tomorrow. If your experience is anything like mine was last week, then tonight is going to be pretty hard. I wasn’t expecting that; the night leading into the 1-year mark for me what actually the hardest part of the whole event. It is so hard to believe that it has already been a year…
THinking of you – hugs from afar…
♥
BB
Thinking of you on this day.
I think I have commented before that it really does get easier. The anniversary’s suck for about 10 years, but after the first one, even though you are still painfully sad, it does get better. However, better is in baby steps.
Thinking of you today.
Hugs Amanda,
This is a hard date to get through, but I feel that nothing is as bad as the day it actually happened. The first anniversary for me (last week) was a dark shadow of the real event. Nonetheless, it is hard as all the memories of that fateful day return.
Thinking of you and sending you love and strength across the waves.
Dorthea
I was at Walkabout Creek at Mt Nebo today, making plans for my husband’s memorial and feeling very low, when I saw a sign to the Corymbia Trail. Stopped and thought of you for some time. Hoping some of the peace and sunshine where I was found its way to you and your family today.
Thinking of you….
Dear Amanda,
This is great blog, thank you for sharing your experiences with those of us in similar situation. I sincerely hope you find the courage, strength and love to get through the day. Love and prayers
Georgina
Thinking of you and hoping you got through today by remembering the many good times you shared.
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Love you sweetie. Not the same, not nearly enough.